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I am writing this on a place where ocean waves are crashing, and there’s a sound of water from a small creek nearby. It all felt right. Yet, somehow, I need to get back a few hours later to doing things I quite despise now. That’s always been the case, and I want to stay where I am right now in time and space.
I am also getting a ~100kB/s speed using this phone with a very old modem at this place. I remember when I started digging around the internet, relying on 2G with 10-30kB/s. Those times were very precious for myself.
“Why is every place, every product company now accepted to be a data aggregation company as well? Why is my data the cookie jar that companies frequently get their hand stuck in while acting entitled? Hello, I already paid you, why are you not ashamed of your obvious greed?” https://blog.avas.space/cookie-jar/
“You won’t make it out alive!”
I am being inspired by this post: Rewiring the brain. My attention span is nuts as of late. I drift so very often and I am wasting time, mostly on the internet. I am going to impose an experiment starting today, no Reddit and Youtube for four weeks straight. These two consume most of my time and it is time take these away. I am anticipating of letting go of other things as well.
New hobby: locating, finding, and discovering cell towers.
The things that are a waste of time may be pointless, but that is exactly what makes them worth doing.
“It’s almost like writing my thoughts helps iron the wrinkles in my mind that come up during the day.” https://minimal.bearblog.dev/i-write-to-think-and-understand/
Prey was the first anthem we wrote for the album. The whole song was written about the idea of worshiping unhealthiness. Everything about celebrity is so fucking toxic these days. We’re attracted to toxicity. But it’s also seen as the thing to strive for, because apparently if you reach that status, that’s success, and it’s crazy. And to get there you’re being told that you’re not enough. That simply being a human is not enough. And it’s fucking savage! But that’s what advertising is. Make someone feel like they’re missing a part of themselves and then sell them that part of themselves.
— Winston McCall on Kerrang!
Pros of using a 2GB RAM smartphone in 2025: you can’t multitask as most apps use more memory now, which makes you focus on what you’re really doing with the device.
This is the truth
The only time you’ll here it
I write it down because it seems so hard to say itThese are my thoughts written down on paper
It’s my only savior
From not saying what I want to say
There are my thoughts that are on my mind
Moments that haven’t yet been defined
And I don’t know if you could ever understand
These are the things I can’t say when we’re alone— Truth Of My Youth by New Found Glory
Challenge: only using low network frequency bands.
Giving up root access on Android just to make certain apps work is a path I’m still not willing to take.
Still got something left to prove
It tends to keep things movin’ while everyone around me says
My last days are looming overhead
But what the hell do they think they know?
My head’s above the water, while they drown in the undertow
[…]
If you take it from me, live your life for yourself
‘Cause when it’s all said and done, you don’t need anyone else
Come on!So let’s get back to when everything seemed perfect
Not a worry in the world, tell me was this all worth it?
I get what I want, so everyone’s always judging me
I’m not afraid of anything, I’ve got the whole world in front of me— All I Want by A Day to Remember
It’s kinda silly to think that I am listening to a podcast named “Mac Power Users”, yet I don’t have any Apple devices and even interest on it, nothing against on that ecosystem though. I am just curious about a certain guest they interviewed.
I am trying in doing things in single-task, no context switching every time anymore.
A salamander just crossed in front of me while as well at this moment.
I am somehow treating this site as a journal now, huh.
“The problem is, we live in a world where “nothing” has been rebranded. You can’t just sit. Now it has to be “mindfulness.” You can’t just walk. It’s a “hot girl walk.” You can’t lie down. It’s “body rest yoga.” No. I want the old-school version of nothing. Just staring into space for five minutes, or maybe an hour (…or six), without someone turning it into a self-care routine. For the love of all that is holy, just let me do nothing in peace, thank you very much.” https://musingsfromatangledmind.com/2025/09/23/more-nothing-please/
For years of using OpenWRT on my router, it is my first time trying “Attended Sysupgrade” to upgrade the firmware. The process is just smooth. It always brings a smile when I update open-source projects because of the development involved around the community.
I will take the challenge of having a bad network reception. ‘Bout time to disconnect!
“The least little bit can do so much.” https://btxx.org/posts/bare/
Unfortunately, we always seem to think that switching the service or curating the feed differently works to alleviate that completely. I guess it feels that way for a while, but looking on from the outside, I can’t see much change. You’re still spending hours in the same space that frightened and stressed you for years and continues to. No matter what big platform you turn to, your brain still recognizes the feed, the numbers, the danger of comments, the fear of getting dragged. Your heart drops when you see too many notifications or a DM. You’re still always in position, anticipating the next asshole to come along. You’re frightened. You have no trust. Someone’s criticism about a thing is always, somehow, vaguely a dig at you and your worth to you.
I successfully replaced the battery of my old low-end daily driver phone. Unlike the previous aftermarket ones, this seems to have a functional BMS (battery management system), so all sensors work as expected. Even being low-end, it still runs fine on latest Android version as of writing. Here’s to another 3+ years of usage at least.
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